poem subconscious
You’re invading my sub conscience
Im itching scratching clawing till my skin raws
Please stop
I have no room for you
But my mind and my heart seems to think so
My mind wants to lay on your chest of thoughts
Hearing the rhythms of your memories
Our rib cages began to tease the lips of our bones
They mold into one another
I want to be near
But I have no room for you
Heart feels like it can fit you right next door
in my bosom where Ill hold you forever
My fingertips dip into my hallow soul
finding treasures in what I feel for you
I keep telling my entire being that we have no room for you
Ill keep telling myself that
Even after you move and find your place
your new home
Inside me
Thoughts con caving into the next thought
not having time to think think thoughts that are not so crowded
My mind cannot catch its breath
Molding into one another
trying to find how we are alike in ways
but when I look at you we are not from the same thought pattern
we have to stop staring into each others lines of her uncontrolled feelings in our home.
Just want to see her happy and not so untamed by us
My thoughts constantly speak to each other
driving me crazy
stop thinking
stop trying
Just stop
at like 4 this morning. So I went on IG and saw these groups of friends that goes to diff halls is always together. I was a little sad because none of them reaches out to me. But it seems that way with a lot of people. But I still have Jehovah and my two other friends. Ill be fine. I just cried it off. It sadden me because it is like you left the world to be treated like nothing. However that just goes to the young kids that I know. When I think of it, I did not leave the world for them but for Jehovah. There are many ones that do reach out and that is what I have to look at. They may be older but sometimes that is good for me because I am mature. Also they have more experience in the truth than I. What I am going to do is just remain close to Jah and keep busy with theocratic activities and start playing my guitar. Jehovah got me. Thank you.
So I saw a lot of people with the ash on their forehead with the cross. There is actually no word LENT in the bible. Jesus fasted for forty days and forty nights yes (Matthew 4:2) But there is no where in the bible where it says for people to do it. Jesus also did not die on a cross http://diariesofahealinggirl.tumblr.com/post/37141716009/jesus-dying-on-a-cross
And after those 40 days of sacrificing whatever you may, you go back to your ways?
This is also for Jesus death and resurrection ?
Luke 22:19,20
“Also he took loaf,gave thanks,broke it, and gave it to them saying .” This means my body, which is to be given in your behalf. Keep doing this in remembrance of me. 20 Also the cup in the same way after they had the evening meal he saying: This cup means the new covenant by virtue of my blood which is to be poured out in your behalf”
Jesus said nothing about celebrating his Resurrection but rather his death.He said keep doing this in remembrance of me. That is why we have annual memorial.
I am not judging anyone. It is not my place just doing research and reading what the bible says.
There are many thoughts wondering in my head but the main one is not being able to see my cousin who is like my brother. It could be another year or maybe some more years. This world is so unfair. Like I am heartbroken. Really sad. A couple days ago was my aunts death anni and you feel it all over again. Go through the motions how it happened that exact day. You never forget. The pain never eases but Jehovah gives you strength to carry on. Sigh
with my close friend. It was nice because she went through something that I went through so I was able to share with her how I was able to cope with the same situation and that was praying to Jehovah. We all cope differently and express ourselves differently but one thing we do have in common is praying to Jehovah. We all have our struggles and when you mess up do not beat yourself up. We are imperfect however we have to TRY to do what is right in Jehovah’s eyes and what we know is right period. Sometimes we are too guilty to speak to Jehovah about things we have done but Jehovah already saw what you did and what led up to that. Jehovah knows every fiber every hair on our heads and our genetic make up. We all have our issues but Prayer to Jehovah is everything and staying close to Him.
You’re invading my sub conscience
Im itching scratching clawing till my skin raws
Please stop
I have no room for you
But my mind and my heart seems to think so
My mind wants to lay on your chest of thoughts
Hearing the rhythms of your memories
Our rib cages began to tease the lips of our bones
They mold into one another
I want to be near
But I have no room for you
Heart feels like it can fit you right next door
in my bosom where Ill hold you forever
My fingertips dip into my hallow soul
finding treasures in what I feel for you
I keep telling my entire being that we have no room for you
Ill keep telling myself that
Even after you move and find your place
your new home
Inside me
“Jehovah is near to those that are broken at heart; And those who are crushed in spirit he saves”
Love this scripture. One of my favorites. It brings me comfort and I know for sure that Jehovah saved my life. I was in a whirl pool of things i should not have been caught in and it left me broken but Jehovah helped me along the way and comforted me. When you do feel low and down you pray and supplicate to Jehovah. Trust me you will feel so much better.
someone might see you as not enough but thats okay because I am more than enough for myself and I know one day someone will love and accept me as me. Not needing anything else or nothing more.
We will never meet
we both carry heavy souls
We cant juggle our loads
wish it was that easy
I wanna cup your face into my heart
Where you belong
I want sweaty palms facing each other
I want to help you carry that heavy soul barring on your back
scraped knees from falling over
I want to pick you up
I just want to help
Heavy souls
because i dedicated my life to Jehovah and I am so happy that I did.I learn how to love Jehovah and loving him helped me to love myself. Sometimes I wouldnt even understand why Jehovah chose someone like me. I am a pretty screwed up being like a lot of us but that is not for me to know. What I do know is that I am very happy to be apart of this organization. I have made friends , I have met people who brought me down. I have let go of a lot. I let go and forgave people who hurt me and I forgave my father for not being a dad to me. Because I have realized some people do not have their father anymore or their father is just not in their lives. So I am happy with the little bit I get. I moved on from someone I never thought Id be able to. I have laughed and wasnt afraid to be me. I am content. And I am looking forward to reaching my spiritual goals short and long term. :)
